MAMIE HOLST explores the abstract landscape within her experience of chronic fatigue and immune disfunction syndrome through her ongoing series of black, gray, and white paintings titled “Landscape Before Dying.” Since 1989, when she was diagnosed with CFIDS and forced to return home, she has mined her syndrome-related internal experiences of static, tremor, distortion, drift, voids, isolation, and occasional peace. “I feel like I don’t really think anymore. Of course I still think or else I wouldn’t function obviously, but it’s a much more basic type of thinking. It’s like if you try to think big thoughts your brain hits a blank wall. When painting, it just sort of comes out. While looking at a finished painting, I can’t really remember how I did it. I know where I put the lines down etc., but most of the decision making is more subconscious.”